War, Peace, and Everything in between...

Alright, I've been suffering my own case of writers block, but a new post has been requested and I see it has been almost 3 months since my last post. I can't believe it has been almost that long. So much has been going on, and yet I've had nothing to say. So here's my poor attempt at coming out of my writer's block.

War:
We are fast approaching the festival of Purim. Purim is a celebration honoring Queen Esther and her saving the Jews of Persia from extermination. I've said it before and I'll say it again, the Iranians have always tried to kill us and yet we are still here and we are more successful than they are. Maybe they should focus their energy on trying to emulate us instead of genocide and then they'd have a nicer country. Iran still has 20,000 Jews living there and they take care of Esther's grave. I find that to be somewhat Ironic. They are still trying to kill us, yet they care for the grave of the woman who stopped them all those years ago.

I have never seen Purim celebrated and I was hoping to have been in Israel for it, however due to circumstances beyond my control I find myself still in the US and in a state of panic for it. My new goal is to be in Israel for Pessach.

This isn't the end of the world as I will find myself visiting my new family at the synagogue for Purim, assuming they have the invitations printed for the party. I am looking forward to the fact that it recognizes the waste the war would have been, and it leads to a peace. I also think it is cool that the story is so beautiful. It has everything a good story does. I sometimes feel like Haman is coming after me so I particularly enjoy this story at this time, with Haman getting his ass kicked. I made some Hamantaschen they came out spectacularly. Untraditionally but that's OK, I'm not a Jew yet so I don't have to be so strict.

Peace:
Pessach is another one of these sort of war and peace holidays. There is a different sense of war of course because of the Egyptians, but they even go after the Israelites with an army so that still has a military component. My abba tells me that Mitzryiam has two forms of oppression physical and spiritual.

Unlike Purim, I have seen Pessach celebrated numerous times. I love it, it is by far my favorite holiday. I have a special connection to it this year given the events of my life. There is something really peaceful and beautiful about reading this story and looking at how awesome God really is. God really does do wonderous things, and it is sometimes really amazing to watch this process.

It's been a very trying exodus for me, but I have found my constant companion to be God, and that also some angelic presences were sent to help me with this process in the form of some really good friends. Some I had before, some I met during, all that I will keep after. I have also been blessed with some new family along the road. I am grateful for that, it has kept me from going under many times.

Family is so important, and I find myself having to reconstruct so much. I'm sure it was that way for a lot of people in the desert and in other historical time periods. I know I am sick of wandering the desert, but I am hoping that this time period in the wilderness will be ending shortly. In the meantime I am grateful to those that have so kindly tolerated the ups, downs, and other assorted directions that the roller coaster ride has moved in over the past year. It has been very helpful to me that I have been able to count on some people to not be problematic.

I have a few other wars now that I am trying to find peace through, I know peace can sometimes only be found on the other side of war and so I hope that the war can end soon. It is ironic I was born in Adar which means fire.

Everything in between:
Not much to report on this end of things. My dear friend has gotten back into contact with me, this makes me feel a little more secure. I feel extremely insecure and so it makes me feel better to think that I am important enough to have contact again.

I am panicking about the economic situation I find myself in as well as the spiritual and emotional ones. I am sure that this will pass eventually and I pray that it will be ending very soon.